grudge

fe’l verb

1. To be unwilling to give or allow (someone something).
2. To grumble, complain; to be dissatisfied.
3. To hold or harbour with malicious disposition or purpose; to cherish enviously.
4. To feel compunction or grief.

ot noun

1. Deep-seated and/or long-term animosity or ill will about something or someone, especially due to a past misdeed or mistreatment. to have/hold/bear a grudge against someone